Because you were expecting this in one way but not that much on the other.
Because you knew your life was so incredible that it couldn't last forever. Ok let's not say forever but at least a couple of years. Please, let me dream alive for a couple of years, could I have said then.
But that's not how things work in those days. In those days, the Company decides that they want to close your office and whatever you're doing there, whatever you've brought there, they don't really care. (Let's face it)
One day, you just receive a text, not even from your boss, but from one of your interns, saying: "it's done. They're closing the office". And of course, you cannot say this is a huge surprise as they hadn't renew any contracts for the last year, but well... You were still hoping to stay for a while. And by a while you meant at least another winter. Because you love winter. Real Winter, with a capital W. The one when it's snowing, freezing and everything. You like wearing all your warm clothes on and feeling that much protected under your 12 layers of Uniqlo heattech clothes (remember Uniqlo? This almost unknown brand, as your boss told you in November 2014, and it's because someone told him about it that he's sharing this with you. Lucky you !). Well, you love winter, you love your life here, so much healthier and easier than in France before. You love New York, of course, but in a very special way. Probably not because this is the city that never sleeps, nope, this is not exactly you. Even if right now you don't get enough sleep, uh.
You live New York because you love your life here.
[Petite photo prise en allant au consulat] |
I love my life here because nobody judges me. I can wear whatever I want, nobody cares. Even if this means wearing an old pair of jeans with cowboy boots and a crop top. Not even feeling weird anymore when wearing this. Last Sunday, I went out wearing a long skirt with a crop top and my favourite sneakers, with a cowboy hat (I do like cowboy stuff, howdy!) and felt good. Even in the Village!
[Vue depuis le Rooftop ink48] |
I also love my life here because I became a better person. I became a smiling person, able to chitchat with anybody, just because we are sharing the same elevator. And I smile. I smile all the time, to anybody. Feels so much better. Oh, and I also became more polite. Not that I was rude before. I don't think so, just that now I don't rush to get the best seat in the bus, I punctuate most of my moves in a busy environment with a "excuse me Sir..."
And after all these changes, after having repeated to myself almost every single day how much I love my life here I have to leave everything to go back to Paris. Actually this is almost my last night in my apartment, I feel a bit depressed.
[Aaaah le #coffeewithaview mention speciale au taxi assorti a la cup. Retour de la laverie de la 33rd, snif. Non en fait, la laverie ne va pas me manquer !] |
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Pps: for those who want all the details and so that nobody asks me ever again this question which tends to make me nervous "when are you going back?", I am moving on Thursday to another place in Chelsea and leaving the US at the end of September, tbd.